The Most Beautiful Sound We Have Ever Heard

Saturday afternoon I spotted.  All of our past miscarriages came rushing back to me.  I was beyond devastated.  I called the exchange, knowing they could not do anything, but did not know where to turn.  The nurse said to take it easy, lay down, and drink some water.  I did just that, however we had about 10 friends coming over to hang out for the evening.  Oh and most were on their way already.  It was so hard!  I lied and said that I hurt my back.  That got me out of a lot of movement and holding babies.  I could not think of anything else with a house full of friends.  I knew it was over.

Well, pleasantly I was wrong.  The spotting stopped and I had nothing more since that afternoon.  We just went today for our 2nd ultrasound.  Our baby is just fine!  I am not sure I have ever taken a sigh of relief so big!  Doc said it was probably an irritant from the suppositories. 

Then...we heard....the most beautiful sound we have ever heard....our babies heartbeat.  Nothing prepares you for such an amazing moment.  There is not just cells growing inside you.  There is one little tiny perfect heartbeat!  I pray that you all get to experience this someday.  This moment was worth all the pain, heartache, and money!  Without further delay, our baby at 6w4d....

This was our last appt with Dr P.A.  I cannot believe it!  When we left I immediately called J (our nurse from our previous dr).  Months ago I said how much I loved her and how it was hard to leave her care.  Her office does not do IVF, but she continued communicating with Dr. P.A. (she is good friends with him and also works for his brother).  I text her to call me when she had a chance.  She immediately called me and sounded scared.  Our conversations are usually not about anything good so I could tell she was nervous about what I was going to tell her.  I immediately blurted out the words, I am pregnant!  Maybe even before hello.  It felt so good to say those words.  Oh yeah, if I have not said already we have not told our friends and family.  We are still waiting.  Not sure when will be the moment, but we just really want to feel like we are in a good place and we can say the words without any reservation.  I understand no date will ever be "safe," but to have heartbeat and several ultrasounds would make us more confident.  Oh and it is KILLING us!

So I am getting off track.  Anywho, we already have an appt with J and Dr. G.A. next week.  J is talking about running some tests (did not go into detail), ultrasound, intralipids, and on and on.  It just made me feel so much better.  She said she wants to be over cautiouss with me.  Awesome, cause I am already there!!

Thank you again for all of your continued support and congrats!  I feel you are all my friends that know some of the best and worst about me.  I am forever grateful for each and everyone of you!!