Staying Busy

I will not even apologize for being absent once again because it seems like that is how I always start them. I am still reading and keeping up on all of your blogs the best I can. Have not posted much lately because I have been pretty busy which is a good thing. Staying busy always keeps my mind off of things.

We are getting ready for our va-ca and I gotta tell you, it cannot come soon enough. When we get back I leave the following day for my annual girl's weekend at the Lake then start my meds. I am so excited to see my girlfriends that I just don't see enough these days. The only thing that has kinda bummed me out about the trip is that this will be the first year that I am the only one without child (at home or in belly). I guess I could bring pics of my embryos. However, I do not think I will get the ooohs and aaahs like the other baby pics :O)

Last Friday, Jerry and I finally met our new FET Coordinator in person. I L-O-V-E her! I really did like the last one for our retrieval, but there is something about this one. Not only did she answer all of our questions, but she made us feel so comfortable and prepared. She really seemed emotionally there for us, too. I think we all can agree that can be hard to find. At one point we were not even talking about anything personally in our case, but her eyes started to get watery. I figured it was something in her eye or allergies. She finally apologized for getting emotional. She said that she just really enjoyed working with us and wanted us to be able to have a family.

Needless to say my waterworks were not far off at this point. You always hear about and feel personally that these nurses get de-synthesized. I suppose you somewhat need to. Not this one, or at least not in that moment. There was something very special about this nurse. I am thankful to God for bringing her into our lives and giving us one more cheerleader down here.

So we are all set ladies. FET is scheduled, I have my calendar, and meds are being ordered. I am hopeful, terrified, excited, and nauseous. Just another day in an IF's world!

Still here!

I feel like I just said I was sorry for being MIA. I have been terrible about posting regularly. I have been busy, but that is good because that keeps my mind off of things. However, I am still keeping up on your blogs, or trying my best to.

What you have missed in my life...

I became a very proud and blessed aunt to this beautiful being

Then there is this little one...

I spent several days with her BIG SISTER while her Mother (my sis), Father, and baby sis were in the hospital. I ABSOLUTELY LOVE being Aunt T. My nieces and nephew warm my heart and give me such joy. We had such a great time and it really did break my heart a bit to take her back home. When those little hands wrap around your arm or neck...the world is perfect.

What is going on in my IF world?

Last week went for my ultrasound and I know you all will be shocked....2nd FET cancelled. No dominant follicle. I was already prepared. I started spotting the day before. So next step...MEDICATED FET! We cannot take it anymore. The retrieval was in the beginning of April! I tried to be patient, but this could go on for months.

I start my meds in the mid of July. Transfer will be beginning of August. Finally! So what better time to go on a va-ca! No we do not have the money to do this and it is extremely irresponsible and last minute. Don't care! WE need this. So MEXICO here we come!!!

Tomorrow

Tomorrow we will welcome a new baby.
Tomorrow will be an amazing day.
Tomorrow a miracle will happen.
Tomorrow the world will smile.
Tomorrow I get to be an Aunt again.
*enormous smile*

Infertility Queen

Sorry so long since my last post. We had a mini-vacation and then been busy at work. I want to share what I got in the mail today. Some of you may have visited this site Fertility Socks. I found it through another blog and thought it was such a unique and thoughtful idea. I will definitely be participating and sending a pair of socks. Here is the pair that I received and hopefully some day soon get to wear at my FET...

Not sure if the crowns mean I am the Queen of Infertility. Sadly that is not something I want to be the Queen of. Queen of my house, Queen of bargain shopping....but infertility...you can take that crown back! :O) Regardless I am thrilled to get my "lucky" socks and very thankful for Emily and all the kind people that have donated.

I also wanted to talk about someone that I recently met. A fellow co-worker that I never met until a couple weeks ago announced that she was leaving at the end of the month. We will call her D. She casually in front of several people said that she and her husband had been trying to get pregnant for awhile and if she was going to spend $20,000 to have a child she did not want to be stressed out with work too. Whoa, I could not believe she just said that to all those people that she did not really know! I envied her that she could be that open. We have all talked about the stigma on infertility and how hard it can be opening up about it. I am already a private person and do not like people knowing my business. Add a topic that can be so controversial...I shut down and become a mute! There is only one person at my work that knows anything related to my infertility. So can you believe I asked her (privately of course) about her situation?? And discussed mine?!

There have been so many times in this journey that I have felt alone. This blog and the support I get from all of you has done wonders for me! I wanted to see where she was and if in fact she may feel alone as well. So I am giving her the location of my blog and I would like you all to welcome her. I am not sure if she wants to start her own or just check out each of our stories. Either way, D, I know we really do not know each other but I enjoyed talking to you today. If there is anything I can ever do...well you know where I sit and now you have my blog to contact me in the future.