Tomorrow we will welcome a new baby.
Tomorrow will be an amazing day.
Tomorrow a miracle will happen.
Tomorrow the world will smile.
Tomorrow I get to be an Aunt again.
*enormous smile*
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I carried angels in my
womb,
Right below my heart.
The time
with my Angels was short,
But I loved my babies from the
Start.-unknown
About the Millers
- T
- Jerry and I were married back in April of 2005. We have truly been blessed with good jobs, a beautiful home, and wonderful friends and family. Our journey with infertility has been a long one with many bumps in the road. Read on to hear about our "inconceivable" journey....you really have to laugh to stay sane.
Our Story
DECEMBER 2006
After a year of trying to get pregnant....the stick finally said it...Pregnant! We waited until Christmas to tell our families. What a surprise it was to all get photos of our positive pregnancy test!
Five days later, our gift was gone.
JUNE 2006
We had thought immediately after our miscarriage it would just happen again. After 6 months we decided to go see a Reproductive Endocrinologist. My ob had referred me to Dr W. We went through a series of tests. At that time determined that there was an issue with my cervical mucus and the survival of sperm.
JULY 2006
Underwent our first IUI treatment along with Clomid. It was unsuccessful.
SEPTEMBER 2006
Underwent our second IUI treatment along with Clomid, again unsuccessful.
NOVEMBER 2006
Underwent our third IUI treatment along with Clomid. Along with being unsuccessful it resulted in Ovarian Hyperstimulation.
JANUARY 2007
Decided to see another RE. Referred by a former patient (and successful patient) We went to Dr A and RN J. Again, went through a series of tests. Discovered at that time I had a condition called Genetic Thrombophilia a well as MTHFR.
MARCH 2007
Underwent another IUI. This time I had to give myself daily blood thinner injections to treat the Thrombophilia. We also lowered our dose of Clomid to avoid hyperstimulting my ovaries. We were unsuccessful in getting pregnant.
JUNE 2007
Underwent another IUI. Instead of Clomid this time we used Follistim and continued the Lovenox shots. Again, unsuccessful and feeling very defeated!
JULY 2007
More tests!! Seriously, I believe we were tested for everything!! It came back that I had elevated levels of NK cells.
SEPTEMBER 2007
Underwent yet another IUI, but beforehand had an infusion of intralipids and as well as after the IUI. This is to supress the NK cells. Still nothing....
JANUARY 2008
Another IUI with Intralipids, Follistim, Lovenox, Progesterone, Folic Acid, Prenatal...whew! I am a walking pharmacy! Once again unsuccessful....angry....depressed....defeated.
MAY 2008
Laproscopic surgery to determine if I have endometriosis. Endometrial lesions were found and removed. I had a terrible reaction to the anesthesia. Uncontrollable shaking for 24 hours after surgery.
JUNE 2008 - AUGUST 2008
Turning 28 and going through Menopause! Holy Cow, hot flashes are terrible!! I was having menopause symptoms due to being on Lupron to treat the Endometriosis.
SEPTEMBER 2008
Done with the Lupron now have to wait two cycles before starting everything again....getting very anxious.
DECEMBER 2008
It is go time! Had IUI and found out the week after Christmas that we were pregnant! HAPPY NEW YEAR!
JANUARY 2009
NOT AGAIN! How could this be possible!! We lost our baby once again! The loss was....there are just no words to describe the emptiness we felt.
FEBRUARY 2009
Since there was no sac we could immediately try again this next cycle. THIS time had to be it! We had another IUI and bam! We were blessed for the third time, but within two weeks gone once again. We were overwhelmed with emptiness and hopelessness...just two days before Valentines day.
MARCH 2009
Trying again, but still feeling very hopeless. I am not sure I can go through losing another child. We again got pregnant right away. Everything was looking great. We were further along then we ever had been. J called us with the latest HCG levels. They had skyrocketed! This is finally going to be it!
APRIL 2009
Our child was still growing, but not where they needed to be. I was having an Ectopic pregnancy. Since our baby would not be able to survive within the tube I had to get an injection of Methotrexate. After two weeks, my HCG level was not dropping like it should. Had to get another shot of Methotrexate. Several weeks later still not decreasing enough. At that point I had a D&C. That little baby was our fighter. He did not give up, which made it that much harder.
MAY 2009
It was time to give my body some rest. We had lost 4 babies at this point. Even if my body could take it, my heart could not try again.
AUGUST 2009
After talking to Dr G and J about our previous pregnancies we decided to try one more time. The thought was that maybe I was not having an Embryo issue, that with my Thrombophilia it is just more common to have Ectopic Pregnancies. We were so close last time. Trying this time with intralipids and ivig.
SEPTEMBER 2009
10th J called....we had been blessed with another little life growing inside!
29th Had first ultrasound to see our little sac. The dissapointment was overwhelming when there was nothing there. We had another ectopic pregnancy...another gift was gone.
OCTOBER 2009
Phone Consultation with Dr P.A. to discuss IVF. This is very hard for me because we had really formed a relationship with J. Starting over with another RE, especially when we had grown to completely trust the last one, was not something we wanted to do. However, they had done everything they could(they do not specialize in IVF). I never ever ever thought we would end up here. Contimplating going through with IVF in the January cycle.
NOVEMBER 2009
More tests with P.A.'s office. Seriously, how can there possibly be THAT many things to test!! My Uterus and follicles got an A! It is nice to get good results once in awhile! Jerry's morphology a little low, Dr. P.A. recomended antioxidants.
DECEMBER 2009
Decided to hold off on January cycle. At this time we do not have the fundage. Unfortunately, there is no guarantee with IVF and our insurance....for lack of better words...sucks! I also want some more time to really research IVF and completely understand the whole process.
JANUARY 2010
Just waiting on a winning lottery ticket, Leprechaun with a pot of gold, or just one simple tiny miracle.....
FEBRUARY 2010
Still saving money....and waiting on that Leprechaun :)
MARCH 2010
Officially signed up for IVF in April. Anxious, nervous, excited, scared...you name it!
APRIL 2010
First IVF cycle pretty rough. OHSS and had to cancel transfer. Have 4 frozen embabies. Two of them are are perfect PGD embryos!
MAY 2010
FET cancelled. Did not ovulate. Trying to give my body a rest and not medicate it. Will try Natural FET in June...if I ovulate.
JUNE 2010
FET cancelled...again. No dominant follicle. Time for meds and making this FET happen early August.
JULY 2010
Going for a medicated FET. Started meds on 07/12/10. Transfer scheduled for August 5th.
AUGUST 2010
Transfer on August 5th.....success! Celebrating the life growing inside!!!
SEPTEMBER 2010
Baby still growing strong. Heard the heartbeat...it was amazing! Cannot wait to tell our families about our miracle...finally!
OCTOBER 2010-To Date
Preparing for our miracle!!
After a year of trying to get pregnant....the stick finally said it...Pregnant! We waited until Christmas to tell our families. What a surprise it was to all get photos of our positive pregnancy test!
Five days later, our gift was gone.
JUNE 2006
We had thought immediately after our miscarriage it would just happen again. After 6 months we decided to go see a Reproductive Endocrinologist. My ob had referred me to Dr W. We went through a series of tests. At that time determined that there was an issue with my cervical mucus and the survival of sperm.
JULY 2006
Underwent our first IUI treatment along with Clomid. It was unsuccessful.
SEPTEMBER 2006
Underwent our second IUI treatment along with Clomid, again unsuccessful.
NOVEMBER 2006
Underwent our third IUI treatment along with Clomid. Along with being unsuccessful it resulted in Ovarian Hyperstimulation.
JANUARY 2007
Decided to see another RE. Referred by a former patient (and successful patient) We went to Dr A and RN J. Again, went through a series of tests. Discovered at that time I had a condition called Genetic Thrombophilia a well as MTHFR.
MARCH 2007
Underwent another IUI. This time I had to give myself daily blood thinner injections to treat the Thrombophilia. We also lowered our dose of Clomid to avoid hyperstimulting my ovaries. We were unsuccessful in getting pregnant.
JUNE 2007
Underwent another IUI. Instead of Clomid this time we used Follistim and continued the Lovenox shots. Again, unsuccessful and feeling very defeated!
JULY 2007
More tests!! Seriously, I believe we were tested for everything!! It came back that I had elevated levels of NK cells.
SEPTEMBER 2007
Underwent yet another IUI, but beforehand had an infusion of intralipids and as well as after the IUI. This is to supress the NK cells. Still nothing....
JANUARY 2008
Another IUI with Intralipids, Follistim, Lovenox, Progesterone, Folic Acid, Prenatal...whew! I am a walking pharmacy! Once again unsuccessful....angry....depressed....defeated.
MAY 2008
Laproscopic surgery to determine if I have endometriosis. Endometrial lesions were found and removed. I had a terrible reaction to the anesthesia. Uncontrollable shaking for 24 hours after surgery.
JUNE 2008 - AUGUST 2008
Turning 28 and going through Menopause! Holy Cow, hot flashes are terrible!! I was having menopause symptoms due to being on Lupron to treat the Endometriosis.
SEPTEMBER 2008
Done with the Lupron now have to wait two cycles before starting everything again....getting very anxious.
DECEMBER 2008
It is go time! Had IUI and found out the week after Christmas that we were pregnant! HAPPY NEW YEAR!
JANUARY 2009
NOT AGAIN! How could this be possible!! We lost our baby once again! The loss was....there are just no words to describe the emptiness we felt.
FEBRUARY 2009
Since there was no sac we could immediately try again this next cycle. THIS time had to be it! We had another IUI and bam! We were blessed for the third time, but within two weeks gone once again. We were overwhelmed with emptiness and hopelessness...just two days before Valentines day.
MARCH 2009
Trying again, but still feeling very hopeless. I am not sure I can go through losing another child. We again got pregnant right away. Everything was looking great. We were further along then we ever had been. J called us with the latest HCG levels. They had skyrocketed! This is finally going to be it!
APRIL 2009
Our child was still growing, but not where they needed to be. I was having an Ectopic pregnancy. Since our baby would not be able to survive within the tube I had to get an injection of Methotrexate. After two weeks, my HCG level was not dropping like it should. Had to get another shot of Methotrexate. Several weeks later still not decreasing enough. At that point I had a D&C. That little baby was our fighter. He did not give up, which made it that much harder.
MAY 2009
It was time to give my body some rest. We had lost 4 babies at this point. Even if my body could take it, my heart could not try again.
AUGUST 2009
After talking to Dr G and J about our previous pregnancies we decided to try one more time. The thought was that maybe I was not having an Embryo issue, that with my Thrombophilia it is just more common to have Ectopic Pregnancies. We were so close last time. Trying this time with intralipids and ivig.
SEPTEMBER 2009
10th J called....we had been blessed with another little life growing inside!
29th Had first ultrasound to see our little sac. The dissapointment was overwhelming when there was nothing there. We had another ectopic pregnancy...another gift was gone.
OCTOBER 2009
Phone Consultation with Dr P.A. to discuss IVF. This is very hard for me because we had really formed a relationship with J. Starting over with another RE, especially when we had grown to completely trust the last one, was not something we wanted to do. However, they had done everything they could(they do not specialize in IVF). I never ever ever thought we would end up here. Contimplating going through with IVF in the January cycle.
NOVEMBER 2009
More tests with P.A.'s office. Seriously, how can there possibly be THAT many things to test!! My Uterus and follicles got an A! It is nice to get good results once in awhile! Jerry's morphology a little low, Dr. P.A. recomended antioxidants.
DECEMBER 2009
Decided to hold off on January cycle. At this time we do not have the fundage. Unfortunately, there is no guarantee with IVF and our insurance....for lack of better words...sucks! I also want some more time to really research IVF and completely understand the whole process.
JANUARY 2010
Just waiting on a winning lottery ticket, Leprechaun with a pot of gold, or just one simple tiny miracle.....
FEBRUARY 2010
Still saving money....and waiting on that Leprechaun :)
MARCH 2010
Officially signed up for IVF in April. Anxious, nervous, excited, scared...you name it!
APRIL 2010
First IVF cycle pretty rough. OHSS and had to cancel transfer. Have 4 frozen embabies. Two of them are are perfect PGD embryos!
MAY 2010
FET cancelled. Did not ovulate. Trying to give my body a rest and not medicate it. Will try Natural FET in June...if I ovulate.
JUNE 2010
FET cancelled...again. No dominant follicle. Time for meds and making this FET happen early August.
JULY 2010
Going for a medicated FET. Started meds on 07/12/10. Transfer scheduled for August 5th.
AUGUST 2010
Transfer on August 5th.....success! Celebrating the life growing inside!!!
SEPTEMBER 2010
Baby still growing strong. Heard the heartbeat...it was amazing! Cannot wait to tell our families about our miracle...finally!
OCTOBER 2010-To Date
Preparing for our miracle!!
Congratulations Auntie!!!
ReplyDeleteI love my nieces!
Congratulations!! Being an aunt is a great thing!
ReplyDeleteCongrats! How exciting! I am not sure if I'll ever be an aunt. At this rate I'll be really old before that happens!
ReplyDeleteI know it's not the easiest thing during IF. I just became an aunt. Congrats!
ReplyDeletecongratulations!! i LOVE LOVE LOVE being an auntie!!
ReplyDeleteps - i've been hiding my blog off and on bc a real life friend might've found it. am thinking of just moving it, but we'll see :o)
Congratulations! DH and I are getting a new baby cousin today. I know it's not completely easy to deal with a new baby in the family when going through IF, but you are doing great. :)
ReplyDeleteI know this must be a happy day...but also hard since you want that so bad!! Thinking of you today!! Congrats!!
ReplyDeleteCongrats auntie!! I don't have any nieces or newphews yet, but I can't wait until I am one day!
ReplyDeletehey there - shouldn't your transfer be coming up soonish? just checking in. hope you're doing well :o)
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